Boy oh boy am I tired today. I have a serious case of the Monday blues. I did not sleep worth a hoot last night and feel like crap today. Always a great way to start the week. I drank some Four loco's yesterday. 1.5 to be exact and that sh*t put me on my a$$ big time. I won't gross you out with details but yeah, I spent a lot of time in the bathroom. I had Payton and Keaton this weekend again and we had a good time. Saturday night we hung out at the house and just watched TV and movies. I re-arranged the living room and cleaned all day. It was really nice. I love coming home to a spotlessly clean house. It doesn't happen often but while the big kids are gone I can keep up with everything. Speaking of the big kids...they come home in 9 days!!!! Whoo hoo!!!
They are not excited about it but boy Momma sure is. I feel really sorry for them. I understand how badly they miss their dad, and it really sucks that they don't have anyone to talk to about it. I miss my dad and I can go to my mom when I have bad days. They can always come to me but they know that I don't miss their dad so it's just not the same. It has to be hard on them. My resolution for the end of the year is to be a better understanding mother. I will sit with my kids and talk about their dad with them. They need that, I need to be able to go sit with my mom and talk about my dad when I am sad and missing him. The difference is that my dad did not choose to leave, but theirs did. My dad can't come back or call but theirs can and just chooses not to. It breaks my heart sometimes to think of what they are going through.
Kamdyn is doing better. We had the spitting incident last week but she was really having a bad week. She seems to have gotten better though. I think she really misses her bubba and sissy and doesn't know how to handle it. We had Presli over Friday night and Payton and Keaton on Saturday and Sunday so I think she got her fill of kiddos at the house. Thankfully this is the last week she will have to be without them so next week will be wonderful.
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