I am so glad it is Friday. don't think I could take another day of being alone. I never really considered myself a social person but after being here alone all day, I crave people interaction. Michael cringes when he sees me because I am all over him, and as a man, he hates it when I come home and want to talk. I think he would prefer going to the dentist and having a root canal.
I brought Kam to work with me today since she has a touch of pink eye again. Her eyes are not bad but they were matted and really pink this morning. Right now they look really blood shot and have goop dried around them. My mom is in Denver so instead of sending her to school I just brought her with me. Not really the best idea, but at least she is someone to talk to during the day. She has actually been really good. Usually they drive me crazy but I guess since it is just me and her, who is she bothering if she drags all her toys out?
Friday, July 30, 2010
Thursday, July 29, 2010
6 days to go!
Oh I am so happy!!! My kids come home in 6 days. I am counting down the days, hours, minutes and seconds. I am so glad when they leave but by week 2 I am ready for them to come home. Michael, Kamdyn and I have wonderful family time but it's just not complete with out Taylor and Colton. They are the other pieces of my heart and when they are gone, my heart is just not whole. They probably are dreading it, as is their dad. When they come home that means, school, and regular life. No more vacations to Florida or to the beach in California, just regular life that everyone else leads. Taylor will get home and then leave the next day to go to camp for 3 days. She will love it but that means that I will have to bring Colton to work with me every day since I can't leave him home alone all day. It will be fun but he will be bored by 10:30 in the morning of the first day :)
Kamdyn is really missing them to. The other day she told me that she was going to call Taylor and tell her to come home RIGHT NOW! and a different time she told me "next time don't let bubbie go" (to Utah) She misses them so much. I have been trying to be fun mom who plays and sings and does all that exciting stuff but really, I don't hold a candle to those two kiddos.
Saturday is my birthday, oh joy. Can you feel the excitement? It is really weird because I still feel like I am 25. I will look at Taylor who is almost as tall as me and filling out and think how did my baby get so big. It's because I am getting old! oh well age is just a number and you are as young as you feel. I still feel 25 so I guess all is good!
Hugs,
The Bergbowers
Kamdyn is really missing them to. The other day she told me that she was going to call Taylor and tell her to come home RIGHT NOW! and a different time she told me "next time don't let bubbie go" (to Utah) She misses them so much. I have been trying to be fun mom who plays and sings and does all that exciting stuff but really, I don't hold a candle to those two kiddos.
Saturday is my birthday, oh joy. Can you feel the excitement? It is really weird because I still feel like I am 25. I will look at Taylor who is almost as tall as me and filling out and think how did my baby get so big. It's because I am getting old! oh well age is just a number and you are as young as you feel. I still feel 25 so I guess all is good!
Hugs,
The Bergbowers
Monday, July 26, 2010
Monday Blues...
Boy oh boy am I tired today. I have a serious case of the Monday blues. I did not sleep worth a hoot last night and feel like crap today. Always a great way to start the week. I drank some Four loco's yesterday. 1.5 to be exact and that sh*t put me on my a$$ big time. I won't gross you out with details but yeah, I spent a lot of time in the bathroom. I had Payton and Keaton this weekend again and we had a good time. Saturday night we hung out at the house and just watched TV and movies. I re-arranged the living room and cleaned all day. It was really nice. I love coming home to a spotlessly clean house. It doesn't happen often but while the big kids are gone I can keep up with everything. Speaking of the big kids...they come home in 9 days!!!! Whoo hoo!!!
They are not excited about it but boy Momma sure is. I feel really sorry for them. I understand how badly they miss their dad, and it really sucks that they don't have anyone to talk to about it. I miss my dad and I can go to my mom when I have bad days. They can always come to me but they know that I don't miss their dad so it's just not the same. It has to be hard on them. My resolution for the end of the year is to be a better understanding mother. I will sit with my kids and talk about their dad with them. They need that, I need to be able to go sit with my mom and talk about my dad when I am sad and missing him. The difference is that my dad did not choose to leave, but theirs did. My dad can't come back or call but theirs can and just chooses not to. It breaks my heart sometimes to think of what they are going through.
Kamdyn is doing better. We had the spitting incident last week but she was really having a bad week. She seems to have gotten better though. I think she really misses her bubba and sissy and doesn't know how to handle it. We had Presli over Friday night and Payton and Keaton on Saturday and Sunday so I think she got her fill of kiddos at the house. Thankfully this is the last week she will have to be without them so next week will be wonderful.
They are not excited about it but boy Momma sure is. I feel really sorry for them. I understand how badly they miss their dad, and it really sucks that they don't have anyone to talk to about it. I miss my dad and I can go to my mom when I have bad days. They can always come to me but they know that I don't miss their dad so it's just not the same. It has to be hard on them. My resolution for the end of the year is to be a better understanding mother. I will sit with my kids and talk about their dad with them. They need that, I need to be able to go sit with my mom and talk about my dad when I am sad and missing him. The difference is that my dad did not choose to leave, but theirs did. My dad can't come back or call but theirs can and just chooses not to. It breaks my heart sometimes to think of what they are going through.
Kamdyn is doing better. We had the spitting incident last week but she was really having a bad week. She seems to have gotten better though. I think she really misses her bubba and sissy and doesn't know how to handle it. We had Presli over Friday night and Payton and Keaton on Saturday and Sunday so I think she got her fill of kiddos at the house. Thankfully this is the last week she will have to be without them so next week will be wonderful.
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
Yay Communication!!
I guess Taylor's dad bought her a phone charger (she left hers at home) so I have been able to communicate with at least one of my kids this week. It is awesome. There is nothing like getting a mass text from your 12 year old that says "hey". But at least she is texting her old mama. It means she is bored at her dad's this week, which I have to say makes me a little happy. It's no fun being the boring parent, the one who makes them get up to go to school. I would love to be the fun one who gets to take them to Disneyland and Sea World for the whole time they are with me. Naw actually I wouldn't want to be that parent. I like being able to see my kids, be there for them at sports functions or school functions. In the end that is what they will remember, not just the Disneyland.
Oh well, still riding high on my convo's with Tay!
Oh well, still riding high on my convo's with Tay!
Monday, July 19, 2010
What a weekend!
Wow, what a weekend!!
Michael and I went to Dallas to hang out, just the 2 of us. We went up Friday night and stayed at the Doubletree in Downtown. It was nice, the best part ...I got to sleep in until 10am on Saturday. I pulled the shades together, turned on my industrial fan and cranked the A/C down to 60 and slept like a freakin log! It was the most awesome experience of my life. Especially as I sit here at work and think about my sleep last night. Kamdyn in the middle waking me up at all hours asking for her "tup" and it being 75 degrees in my bedroom. I had my fan going but there is something about that cold A/C air blown right on to you. You know what I mean, when you get out of the bed and start shivering, even though it is July and 95 degrees outside. So we got up Saturday and just took our time. We went to the Sixth Floor Museum, it is the book depository where JFK was shot from. The history of that day is just amazing. I can't imagine being there or even being alive at that time. It was so shocking and awful. The pictures of Jackie after it happened, made me want to cry. I walked around the museum with tears in my eyes, and the knowledge that we will never know exactly what happened that day.
We walked around West End for a while and tried to go to the Aquarium but the line just to get in was wrapped around the building and we were not waiting for hours in the heat. So we went back to the Hotel to see if we could find a movie theatre close by. The front desk said there was one 10 mins from the hotel so off we went. After driving around for 30 minutes we passed Speed Zone and decided that would be fun. Michael and I raced on go carts, he won, I got lapped by a man and his kid. I am not a competitive driver apparently. If someone came by, I let them pass. Them Michael did the drag racing, needless to say he will never have a career in drag racing. I think he came in last place 2x and 4th place once. Then we went in to play in the arcade. It was fun but admittedly I am not an arcade person. Just not that girl. I did get him to take a cheesy picture with me though....
Later that evening we met up with Bo and Heather at the IMPROV in Arlington to see Aisha Tyler, she was funny just a little too vulgar for me. Every other word out of her mouth was the F word. I am just not a big F word person, and crazily enough my husband, who by the way thinks F is a verb, adjective and noun was a little put off by her language. He said that an attractive woman dropping F bombs makes them a lot less attractive. She was funny though.
Sunday we got up and just came home. All in all the weekend was good we had a really good time. Can't wait to do it again. We got to Michael's sister's house to get Kam and she has pink eye in both eyes. Yay! I got to hold her down 2x on Sunday to put medicine in her eyes. The last time she just told me that she likes her eyes pink and wants to leave them like they are. Poor baby! She gets to stay with Nana today since she can't go to school with pink eye, so she was not too terribly upset about being "sick".
Michael and I went to Dallas to hang out, just the 2 of us. We went up Friday night and stayed at the Doubletree in Downtown. It was nice, the best part ...I got to sleep in until 10am on Saturday. I pulled the shades together, turned on my industrial fan and cranked the A/C down to 60 and slept like a freakin log! It was the most awesome experience of my life. Especially as I sit here at work and think about my sleep last night. Kamdyn in the middle waking me up at all hours asking for her "tup" and it being 75 degrees in my bedroom. I had my fan going but there is something about that cold A/C air blown right on to you. You know what I mean, when you get out of the bed and start shivering, even though it is July and 95 degrees outside. So we got up Saturday and just took our time. We went to the Sixth Floor Museum, it is the book depository where JFK was shot from. The history of that day is just amazing. I can't imagine being there or even being alive at that time. It was so shocking and awful. The pictures of Jackie after it happened, made me want to cry. I walked around the museum with tears in my eyes, and the knowledge that we will never know exactly what happened that day.
We walked around West End for a while and tried to go to the Aquarium but the line just to get in was wrapped around the building and we were not waiting for hours in the heat. So we went back to the Hotel to see if we could find a movie theatre close by. The front desk said there was one 10 mins from the hotel so off we went. After driving around for 30 minutes we passed Speed Zone and decided that would be fun. Michael and I raced on go carts, he won, I got lapped by a man and his kid. I am not a competitive driver apparently. If someone came by, I let them pass. Them Michael did the drag racing, needless to say he will never have a career in drag racing. I think he came in last place 2x and 4th place once. Then we went in to play in the arcade. It was fun but admittedly I am not an arcade person. Just not that girl. I did get him to take a cheesy picture with me though....
Later that evening we met up with Bo and Heather at the IMPROV in Arlington to see Aisha Tyler, she was funny just a little too vulgar for me. Every other word out of her mouth was the F word. I am just not a big F word person, and crazily enough my husband, who by the way thinks F is a verb, adjective and noun was a little put off by her language. He said that an attractive woman dropping F bombs makes them a lot less attractive. She was funny though.
Sunday we got up and just came home. All in all the weekend was good we had a really good time. Can't wait to do it again. We got to Michael's sister's house to get Kam and she has pink eye in both eyes. Yay! I got to hold her down 2x on Sunday to put medicine in her eyes. The last time she just told me that she likes her eyes pink and wants to leave them like they are. Poor baby! She gets to stay with Nana today since she can't go to school with pink eye, so she was not too terribly upset about being "sick".
Thursday, July 15, 2010
The Blahs...
I think I have a really bad case of the blahs. I sit in this office all day long ALONE, not a single soul to speak to. It has really started to get to me. I feel like I'm in solitary in jail. It spills over into my home life too, I can't seem to shake the blahs even once I leave here. I need to find another job or something has to give.
Pray for me today, I am going to the dermatologist. I have a spot on my right eyebrow that has been there since 2006. It started as a scaly patch that would come off when I had my eyebrows waxed. It would grow back within days so I knew it was something that was not good. I noticed this weekend that it has started getting bigger. It now looks like a mole. I don't think that it is a good thing when stuff starts to grow on your face. So I am off to the dermo in about 20 minutes to see what it is. Hopefully the dr will say it's nothing and freeze it off or something.
Tomorrow night after work Michael and I are going to Dallas for the weekend. I'm so ready for this. We have NEVER spent the night alone out of town before. I think this will be a really wonderful thing for our marriage. Might put a little bit of the ole' spark back in it. We have really fallen prey to the hum drums of being married with 3 kids. It really scares me because we did not have the best beginnings. We love each other yeah but are we friends? That is not something I can answer honestly with a yes right now. So this weekend will be our test. I went on price line and got us a great deal for a hotel room for 2 nights. $150 bucks at Doubletree in Dallas for BOTH nights. How great is that??? We are meeting Bo and Heather Saturday night and going to the Improv at Addison to watch Jon Lovitz. I've never seen any of his comedy routines so I have no idea what to expect. Hopefully it will be good and really funny. I am ready to have a good time.
Everyone be safe and have a wonderful weekend!
TTYL
The Bergbowers!
Pray for me today, I am going to the dermatologist. I have a spot on my right eyebrow that has been there since 2006. It started as a scaly patch that would come off when I had my eyebrows waxed. It would grow back within days so I knew it was something that was not good. I noticed this weekend that it has started getting bigger. It now looks like a mole. I don't think that it is a good thing when stuff starts to grow on your face. So I am off to the dermo in about 20 minutes to see what it is. Hopefully the dr will say it's nothing and freeze it off or something.
Tomorrow night after work Michael and I are going to Dallas for the weekend. I'm so ready for this. We have NEVER spent the night alone out of town before. I think this will be a really wonderful thing for our marriage. Might put a little bit of the ole' spark back in it. We have really fallen prey to the hum drums of being married with 3 kids. It really scares me because we did not have the best beginnings. We love each other yeah but are we friends? That is not something I can answer honestly with a yes right now. So this weekend will be our test. I went on price line and got us a great deal for a hotel room for 2 nights. $150 bucks at Doubletree in Dallas for BOTH nights. How great is that??? We are meeting Bo and Heather Saturday night and going to the Improv at Addison to watch Jon Lovitz. I've never seen any of his comedy routines so I have no idea what to expect. Hopefully it will be good and really funny. I am ready to have a good time.
Everyone be safe and have a wonderful weekend!
TTYL
The Bergbowers!
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
Kamdyn Said WHAT???
This is to funny I just had to share it!
Last night we came home from Michael's nephew Brayden's baseball game at about 8pm. Kamdyn wanted to watch Bolt and Michael said no, just to pick at her. She starts the dramatics, crying, wailing and then says" I just can't take it anymore, my life is over!" Now she is 3, how does a 3 year old come up with something like this? Too stinking funny!!
Monday, July 12, 2010
Clean House = tired Momma
I cleaned and cleaned this weekend but I am very proud to announce that Taylor, Colton and Kamdyn's rooms are all clean. And I mean SPOTLESS!!! I got up Saturday morning with one goal, clean those rooms and I did. I bet I threw away 8 bags of trash just from Taylor's room alone. She will probably be a little p'oed when she gets home but oh well. If you walk to the back of my house it does not look like a tornado hit that part. Taylor's was by far the worst of the 3 and it took me about 4 hours just to clean her room. I re-arranged her room (she will change it as soon as she gets home) but for now, it's exactly how I want it. (Heehee) I bought her and Colton new blinds and valances for their rooms. I still need to get her a mirror for her dresser. I really want one that hangs on the wall and it iron. I really think that would go great in her room.
Colton still needs a comforter for the bottom bunk. I started looking for one at Wal-Mart but just could not find one that I loved so I am going to Target next. The valances that I bought him were blue so I am trying to get something that will coordinate with that. I wanted Michael to build him a shelf but he went to Lowe's for lumber and came back with a utility shelf. It will be broke before them come back. I've already caught Kam trying to get stuff off the top of it.
Kamdyn's room was just messy. She loves to play in her room but has to dump everything out in a huge pile. I'm not sure why but that is how she loves to play. Sunday was Michael's sister's birthday so we went to her house to swim and eat. Michael has a really great family and I really love spending time with them. I'm really lucky. I don't know many in laws that really enjoy spending time with each other and we really do.
Kam fell asleep on the way home of course and Michael put her in bed clothes and all. She got up this morning and was so tickled that she slept in her clothes. She really cracks me up sometimes.
The Bergbowers
Colton still needs a comforter for the bottom bunk. I started looking for one at Wal-Mart but just could not find one that I loved so I am going to Target next. The valances that I bought him were blue so I am trying to get something that will coordinate with that. I wanted Michael to build him a shelf but he went to Lowe's for lumber and came back with a utility shelf. It will be broke before them come back. I've already caught Kam trying to get stuff off the top of it.
Kamdyn's room was just messy. She loves to play in her room but has to dump everything out in a huge pile. I'm not sure why but that is how she loves to play. Sunday was Michael's sister's birthday so we went to her house to swim and eat. Michael has a really great family and I really love spending time with them. I'm really lucky. I don't know many in laws that really enjoy spending time with each other and we really do.
Kam fell asleep on the way home of course and Michael put her in bed clothes and all. She got up this morning and was so tickled that she slept in her clothes. She really cracks me up sometimes.
The Bergbowers
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
Hump Day!
Wow what a busy weekend! Friday night was wonderful, just me and Kam. Michael went to the deer lease and spent the night (which Kamdyn calls the deer woot woot) Kam and I had a wonderful night and got to sleep in. Saturday night we went to a dinner at the church. Poppy (my step-dad) had all of his brother's and sister's in for the 4th so they catered a dinner at the church for the family. It was delicious and I ate and ate and ate! After the dinner my sister and I took her kids to see Eclipse at the drive in. It was really good, I liked it so much more than New Moon. Sunday was the 4th so we went to church and then had a huge BBQ at my mom's house. We do it every year and it just seems to grow and grow.
Kamdyn ran non stop for 6hrs. She swam, played with Presli and ran for hours. Mom and Poppy probably had over 100 people there for the BBQ. They had cotton candy machines, a huge smoker and homemade ice cream. So Yummy!
Here is Kamdyn playing with sparklers
This is her at the end of the night. She was plum tuckered out!
We had a really great time. I was off work on Monday so that was my relaxing day. I went to mom's to help her clean up and just to hang out. Tuesday was back to work as usual :(
Tonight Michael and I are doing steaks for dinner since Kamdyn will go to church with Mom. Maybe I should blog only about eating, cause that's all I talk about!
((Hugs))
The Bergbowers...
Friday, July 2, 2010
I Made It!!!!
I made it a week all by myself at work!! Well technically I have not been completely by myself. Karen comes in 3x a week and then Russell was here in the afternoons of the other 2 days but mostly I have been here all alone. Needless to say I have kept the doors locked (even the front) all day long. People just have to knock, I'm a scaredy cat :)
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