New Job

I started my new job on Monday and I really think I am going to like it. It seems to be the perfect fit for me. I really like the men I am working with, they are all grandfatherly types. As long as I can learn the darn insurance business I will be doing good.

Here is a funny from this weekend. Saturday I had Keaton and Payton and after the football game we went to DQ for lunch. We had all already eaten at the game so I just picked up something for Michael and Colton, but the kids and I got drinks. Keaton was holding his in his lap and told me that holding his Arctic rush like this makes his P-E-N-S cold!

I died laughing, it was too stinking funny!

I'm Done

I'm Done.

I don't think I can do this anymore, I am to tired.

I am ready to quit and I have never been a quitter.

Please God help me!

Krazy Kamdyn

Kamdyn LOVES the cheerleaders at Colton's football games. While they are cheering she is dancing and clapping. So last Saturday she was up clapping and the cheerleaders were yelling "DE-FENCE, DE-FENCE" I started clapping to and told Kamdyn, yell defence. She said no mom that's not what they are saying. I looked at her and said what are they saying?

"SEAT BELTS, SEAT BELTS"

hmmmmmmm

Where did the weekend go?

I think the weekends are getting shorter and shorter. I swear that I get off work on Friday and then turn around and it is Monday again. This weekend was a whirlwind. Friday night we didn't do anything, I was just tired. After work I went to pick up Kam and ended up not leaving Chris and Mandi's until 6pm. I stopped and picked up pizza for dinner. Taylor and Colton both had a friend stay over so we had extra kids. Taylor and I got up early Saturday and went to Old Navy cause they were selling coats for $16 and all my kids needed new coats so off I went. Last time I went to Old Navy when they were having a special there was a line around the building . Not this time. We got there at 7am and there was hardly anyone in there. But it was fine, I stopped and got breakfast for the kids and we came home and ate. We hung around the house until it was time to leave for Colton's game. They won! The other team did get a touchdown which was the first time a team has scored against them this year but that is ok. We still beat them! Go Eagles!!!
Sunday was ok, Michael's family had a softball game but I did not go until later. I am not really a part of their family and plus they had invited a bunch of other people too so I just stayed away. Not really my thing. Oh well. I did go and see my mom, she had surgery on Thursday and still is unable to get around. She seems to be doing ok though. Everyone have a good week!

Taylor

Taylor has always been my good child. She was easy as a baby, never gave me a minute of trouble. She has a very easy going personality, is not strong willed or aggressive like her brother and sister are. Sometimes this is not a good thing, she tends to get left behind so to speak. While the others are fighting for attention she is in her room alone. It bothers me a lot but I also understand how she is. She is just like me. We have the exact same personality. I can relate to her and understand why things hurt her or how she is feeling.
Now today I had a little taste of what my mother went through. We have a rule at the house that she can not wear makeup until she is 13. That is what the rule was when I was growing up. Taylor is a lot prettier than I was at her age. She has beautiful skin, long eyelashes and doesn't need makeup. I understand that she wants to wear it but she is just still to young. I want her to be a kid as long as she can stay innocent. So this morning, she tries to get out of the car quickly at school. I notice that her eye's are really dark, so I asked her..."are you wearing makeup?" She quickly says no and jumps out of the car. I sit there for a second. Roll down the window and say Taylor! She is not that far away, she can hear me. So now I am pissed off. I start really yelling, she is trying to get away without being embarrassed but what she doesn't understand is I am not leaving. She finally acknowledges that I am calling her name and comes back to the car. I again ask her "are you wearing makeup?" She looks away and mumbles yes. Then she says we can talk about it when you get home and walks away. By this time, I am fuming mad. I am ready to get out and really embarrass her but I refrain. The wonderful thing is that I have all day to stew and figure out what kind of punishment she will incur. And man it is going to be good.

Football, Cousins, Scentsy, Canton

Wow this weekend was brutal. I am such a home body. I need at least one day a weekend that I don't do anything, just sit and rejuvenate. That did not happen at all this weekend. Taylor and Kamdyn had Savannah and Presli over to spend the night on Friday. Well let me just say, a 4yr old and a 3 (almost 4)yr old are wild! Those two did not go to bed until 1am and then were up at 8am. I am a sleeper, I have to have 8hrs of sleep. So I was dragging on Saturday. Colton had a football game (they won 24-0 Yay!) and then the little girls, Savannah and I went to Canton to help my mom set up her scentsy booth. My mom and I both sell scentsy. Mom is great at it, me not so much. She has the time and the contacts, I don't. So we set up and came home at 10pm. Everyone was tired by now. Savannah and I got up at 6am to get ready. Mom was picking us up at 7am to get back to Canton to actually sell. We sold and sold and sold! It was actually a great day. Savannah got her hair curled. So cute! We finished up and left Canton by 5pm ate dinner and went home. I was in bed asleep by 8:30pm!!! it was so wonderful. I slept great. Now back to the work grind. I will have the phones again this week from Monday at 8am to Friday at 8am. Sometimes it sucks, sometimes it is ok, but all the time it is tiring.

Visitation

My ex husband only gets Taylor and Colton 3-4 times a year. His visitation goes as follows 12/26 to the day before the kids go back to school from Christmas break, spring break, 42 days in the summer and every other Thanksgiving. He sent me a text last month asking if he could get the kids this weekend because it was a 4 day weekend for them. I said of course, I won't ever keep the kids from their father if I can help it. I probably would have even canceled plans with them so that he could see them, because obviously he does not see them enough. I figured he would get them Thursday evening/Friday morning and keep them til Monday. Nope. He is picking them up on Saturday morning. Colton has a game that afternoon at 3:15pm and then football pictures Sunday at 4:30. So the weekend that he gets the kids, I have to see him the whole freaking weekend. Now that he is divorced from his second wife we have a great relationship. He doesn't bother me and I don't bother him. That means peace for all of us. The sad part is that Taylor doesn't want to go. This is the same kid who 2 years ago BEGGED to let me go live with her dad and his wife. Now she is telling me, I don't want to go, can't I just see him at the game? Granted as soon as she sees him she will change her tune. She is really a daddy's girl. But I see the tides shifting. She is wanting to be home more and Colton is way more interested in his dad. He calls him and texts him a lot. Which is good for both of them. Colton needs to know that his dad is available to him at all times and I know it makes his dad feel good. The funny thing is that when Taylor was begging to go I would never let it happen. There is no way. Colton on the other hand, I love that boy more than life itself, enough to understand that he needs his father. I would see what we could work out and let him go I think. Anyway everyone has ditched me for Colton's game tomorrow so I have to go alone. Yikes, I hate having to sit with him cause that is what will end up happening. Kamdyn will be all over him cause he is Taylor and Colton's dad and she doesn't understand the intricacies of a blended family. Taylor and Colton love her daddy and are always with him, why can't it be the same for her?